i came across something i believed i wrote in my blog once. but here goes again.

1. I belive that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are resposible of who we become.

2. I believe that no matter how good a friend is they're going to hurt you every once in a awhile and you must forgive them for that.

3. I believe that just because someone doesn't love you the way you wanted them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. I believe that it's taking me a long time to become the person i want to be.

5. I believe that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.It may be the last time you see them.

6. I believe that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

7. I believe that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

8. I believe that sometimes when I'm angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

9. I believe that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to elarn to forgive yourself.

10. I believe that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.

11. I believe that the people you care about most in lief are taken form you much too soon.

12. I believe that life is more precious than money will ever be able to be.

i received it thru an email. think about it, would you? it makes sense.

oh i'm going back to penang on wednesday. will only be back on sunday. oh well. i have to seriously bring some books to study. i wanted to study today, but. well.

canon in d on piano. go listen. i love it. =D


you really know how to make a girl smile, don't you?
=D now you know.

chocaholic-me.

ballet exam's OVER.

mistakes here and there.
results will not be out until 3 months plus? i'm not sure.

anyway. what's the similarities between this three?







=D

finals are coming.
holidays are here.


no life.



BROADWAY PARODIES =DD

smile.
chocaholic-me.

i'm down with cough. =(

can it get any worse?

MY BALLET EXAM IS TOMORROW. 25/9/2008.

4pm. major advance foundation.

PLEASE. i want a miracle.

like my examiner, mr. raul sauz giving me straight distinction. =D

i have to think of keeping my legs straight, of the steps, of not screwing up steps, of pull up, of head poise, of balancing without falling, of keeping my smile eventhough it's really hard, of not letting my sweat that's dripping down my face distract me.

DAMN.

i'll be in a better mood after 5.15 tomorrow. haha.
FREEDOM.
chocaholic-me.

JuYi, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =D




i don't like my hairstyle there. haha. in form1 i think.



this year.



YE.

xoxo.
get well soon. haha.

chocaholic-me.

i'm glad i did my work. for once. haha. Sejarah time, teacher checked our books. she wanted us to finish the work she gave us on wednesday.

quite a number didn't do, so they had to go in front of the class. they were punished and were asked to do the duck walk three rounds around my class.

they all did except for this one dude. he was stubborn and probably had a big ego. i guess he doesn't want to embarrass himself in front of everyone? he was reluctant to go. Teacher kept asking him to do it. and he didn't even look at her.

that explains why she was pretty angry today.

anyway, in the morning the malay students had some thing in the hall. moral students had to go to the library. i was sooooo afraid it was gonna one of the BORING ceramah-s i quickly offered help to pn arina. she willingly let me sit in her class. do some papers and go around the f3 classes giving out the answer sheets.

and she oh-so-kindly introduce to me as the girl who wrote that article you see in the canteen now. hahah.

i'm bored. i have nothing to say right now.

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY JUYI! =D.
if i don't get to wish you first, bear in mind that i TOTALLY plan on doing that. haha.

ballet exam in FIVE MORE DAYS?!
chocaholic-me.

people made my day today. =D all you have to do is make me smile, grin or laugh. that'd do. haha.

First it was the idiot coming back to school.
he was suspected of denggi so he didn't come to school.
turns out it was viral fever? whatever lah. he's back thou.

Second was a call.

" hey may i speak to SW please? "
" yeah. "
" hey SW. how are youuuuuu? "
* looks at the receiver. wth? *
" uuuurrrrm. who is this aaah? "
" omg. swwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. "
" OMG. DIVYAAAAAAAAAAAA. DIVYAAAAAAAA.sorry sorry sorry. "

sorry. i forgotten your voice? HAHAH. JOKING.
i couldn't register laaah. i never expected her to call. clearly it won't register in my mind that THAT'S divyaaa. haha.

third was the surprise visit.

" hey what would you do if i was outside your house? "
" hmm. i'd go out? "
* thinking it wasn't true and i didn't want to watse my energy walking, i didn't go check*
" belum cuba, belum tahu. cubalah. "
" wait, are you outside? seriously. "

then the door bell rang. oh?

three fellas. thanks for the visit. HAHA. =D

went to visit JuYi in the hospital with the other 4 of the girls yesterday. ended up talking to her, watching maid in manhattan and eating three quarters of HER biscuit while she watched on. sorry. haha.

nabil;" i had appendix last time too and no one came and visit me. "
" oh. when was that? "
" form 1. "
" oh okay, too bad. noone knew you back then. =D "

" you goat, you are disgusting. you chew your food. spit it out and you eat it again. "
" you're even worse. you eat your own shit. haha "
=.='

another convo during moral class.
" when's my bday ah BA? "
" i know oooone. don't come and trick me into telling you. i KNOW. "
" since you know, tell me laah. "
" aiyo, SW i know laaah. i tell you the month lah, december "
" i remember yours you don't remember mine? =.=' "
" AIYO. i KNOW lah. two digit number start with 1 in front. "
" RIIIIIGHT. "
jega came into convo.
BA hand signalling to jega asking when it is. when jega told him he shouted...

" 5 SEPTEMBER lah okaaay. "
" omg. i meant december. sorry sorry. tongue twister laaaah. "

loser.
chocaholic-me.

this song came back to me.
if we were a movie- miley cyrus.
if we were a movie
you'd be the right guy
and i'd be the best friend
that you'll fall in love with
in the end we'd be laughing
watching the sunset
fade to black
show the name
play that happy song.

i read some of the youtube comments about this song. one saying that a bf died in a car accident saving her life. one saying her best friend died in a car accident. and they want to dedicate this song. awwwwh.

Crush- David Archuleta. =D
I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross you mind
When were hangin, spending time girl,
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away



this pic was taken in a rush. too bad not cleaaaaar.



this is called being bored. haha.

what have i done?
chocaholic-me.

i'm back.
on saturday, i woke up at 7am. went for breakfast and went to ballet studio.
at 9.30, i taught the grade 3 class. 5 girls. 7-9 years old. at first they were a bit quiet, trying to adapt to a new teacher teaching. then they became noisy.

one girl came to me and asked my name and age and where am i staying. then she said she lives in china. and she rides a fairy here. only takes one second.

then i noticed how children like to call " teacher teacher... and the talking would start " if you layan one of them and ignore the other one they'd continue " teacher teacher... " i wonder if i was like that back then. haha. prolly.

then after that i was free. another teacher came to teach grade 1,2 and preprimary. OMG. the preprimary kids ARE SO CUTE. with the hair, the baby fats, the face, the big eyes. aaaaaaah. next time when i have a child of my own, YEAAAAH. there's one girl, i said hi what's your name. she replied " Hi. my name is Chloe, what's yours? "
ala. comelnyeeee. she has straight fringe with short hair. VERY cute.

after kacauing some of them, i had to leave. Celestine's mom came to pick us up and off to Kajang.
we bought McD for lunch. and followed teacher's car to semenyih. sjk(c) kpg baru semenyih. the place where we are going to perform for the night. we had rehearsal there. correcting the kids' spacing. OUR own spacing. kids are SO CUTE. they don't even know what they're suppose to do but just by standing there, they make themselves so aaaaaaah-doraaaable.

after that we hung out in semenyih studio to practise our dance again and again. with pointe shoes on. before the performance we help the kids to get into their costumes and make up for them. okay, i must say, i have NEVER put make up for anyone in my whole life. i put make up for two/three of them? biarlah. cute jugaaak. haha. i think i did quite an okay job for a first timer. then it was my own make up. biarlah cincai.

after reaching the school, we had to put on the big TUTUS. i was wearing purple. first time performing with the tutus on. THANK GOODNESS kristal said we did okay. neat. that's what we want. i don't recall doing any mistakes. thank gooooodness. except for the grande jete part. kids were cute. instead of doing what they were suppose to do, they turned back and look at the big girls perform oh well. and one girl shouted out loud " where's my partner?!?! "

i want to join Jazz too. VERY COOL. love the dance.

after performance, we went back to semenyih studio. had dinner at mamak stall. and hung out at semenyih studio.
celestine, candice, hwey ling, hwey hwey, yu ming, susannah, sean, kristal, fiona all sat together. they were exchanging jokes and it was SO FUNNY. susannah told us " i have a joke. but i don't know whether you'll laugh or not. " Candice just simply replied her " don't worry. we're so high right now, i swear we'd laugh at anything. " okay, i swear there weren't any alcoholic drinks involved. haha.

around 12 something we left the studio and back to teacher's house. VERY BIG. we slept at about 2 something. woke up 8.30am. then we head for kajang studio and hwey ling taught the primary girls. OMG. CUTE gileeeeeeeee. there was this girl, she said she was tired. but she keeps jumping around the whole room, turning and turning. mcm hyperactive.

after that we headed back to danau desa studio and after sitting there getting bored for a while, we had advance foundation class. my parents only picked me up at 6 something after class. thus, the exhaustion. i'm looking forward to a nice long sleep today. too bad. i can dream on. we have to go to school.


that's why i hate you. XD

how did i get from the top of the world to the bottom of the heap?
one day it's like that, the next it's the total opposite.

yin and yang.
chocaholic-me.

oh how i wish i know.






chocaholic-me.

Fights fights fights.

is this how people solve problems?
what is the world turning into?

small matter you make it a BIG deal.
worth it?

anyway, i came across a saying...

" don't argue with an idiot, people watching might not be able to tell the difference. "

my class would know who we're talking about haha.

" how do you make an idiot wait? "
" i'll tell YOU later. "

=D.

i have a ballet performance in semenyih tomorrow.
i have to go to my ballet school and teach those grade 3 little girls pas de bouree, saute, pas de sha, balonce, pose, changement. how cute. too bad i've never really teach before. " LISTEN TO ME YOU KIDS. i want you to do THIS THIS THIS THIS THAT. "

i've got to wake up early tomorrow. then it's ballet the whole day. practice. teaching. THEN at night, is the performance. it's in a chinese school for mooncake festival. YEAH.

how i wish i can learn all the other dances too.
i want to learn contemp. go for hip hop classes. modern dance.

takpe takpe. when i get a car next timeeee. YEAAAAAAH.
enrol myself in different kinds of dance. drive myself there. meet dancers. explore new dance. meet MANY people.

that's the lifeeeee!

after the performance tomorrow, however, i'm going to sleepover in my teacher's place. =D

so i'll be gone till sunday. miss me people miss me.

how i wish.
chocaholic-me.

say you met someone thru the net. and btw, you're a girl.

you decide to go out with him with a few of your friends. and mind you, it's your first time meeting him.

would you or would you not go to his condo ALONE with him?

yeah he might be a nice guy. yeah he might tell you and your friends that nothing's gonna happen. trust him.

true enough, at least not on the first time meeting him eh? it's pretty dangerous nowadays. you have your friends to warn you against it.

do you know looks can be deceiving?
do you know words can also be deceiving?
do you know you cannot just trust anyone just like that eventhough you've talked to him online a lot of time, msg him on your phone, talk to him thru webcam?

i know you might like the guy, and okay, meeting in a mall with a few friends is fine. but going to his condo FIRST time meeting him is not that safe. maybe get to know him LONGER and perhaps, more first? and at least tell your parents about it?

we just don't want you to get hurt. or even worse.
you know we love you.
be careful if you happen to read this.
TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF.
be smart.
you know you can let us know if something's not right, alright?

even if the first time goes well, be smart for the next time. keep in mind that anything can happen.

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anyway.
have you ever heard of the book Twilight? =DD.

my friend intro me to the book a few months back. and L started reading it. then somehow my bro bought the book. and now i'm reading it. =D




this is the book. go check out the story if you're interested.

i haven't finish the book, but so far, i'm pretty happy about it. it's very niceeee.

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LETAK JAWATAN? WHAT?!

chocaholic-me.

so just in case you haven't been updating yourself with the music industry, or that if you're as DEGIL as hanif can get, david archuleta has a new single.



if it's too small, click on it.

and if you haven't heard the song, WHAT are you still doing here? GO go listen to the song. YouTube pun ade lah weyh.

perfect song for a perfect guy. =D



so as a tribute to Divya being in europe dancing her way there during the hari raya season, there.

as much as i love this photo, i can't see liy in the picture. oh well.

camp rock camp rock camp rock!


chocaholic-me.

totally opposite to my previous post, i REALLY REALLY miss watching series at night. from America's Next Top Model, Desperate Housewives, American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance, One In A Million, Malaysian Idol to Charmed.

i looove to watch Charmed. they don't show in on tv nowadays huh.

everybody, listen.
if you ever find anyone who looks anything like David Archuleta, Joe Jonas or Nick Jonas anywhere NEAR me, please let me know. haha. i want to meet guys who look like them. XD

mr.A told me that people call him Nick, Joe and Kevin Jonas. hmm, wonder why eh? haha.

Everyone's studying.

i was in moral class and talking to edna where somehow, she said " i'm gonna study this afternoon. " and she said JuYi was the one telling her to study.

that's when i realised, shit i haven't been studying lately. talk about add maths and sejarah and BIO. at least i have tuition for physics and chem or else...

then i asked liyana what is she gonna when she get home. she said maybe study. i asked nabil too and HE of all people said, he was going to try to study also.

i'm like... dang. am i the only one who's not studying now?

SO FAST the year passed by. in 3 more months i'd be in the big SPM year. wasn't it just a day ago i just finished PMR?

but everyone's all tensed up about the final year exam. one more month. and i haven't even started talking about my advance foundation ballet exam.

wth. i don't think i even remember the steps! talk about going in for exam facing other girls who can balance VERY well and with nice extensions and expressions when this girl here can't even remember the steps well. with the pressure of the examiner's eye watching you intensely, just waiting for you to do something wrong. which i know i would.

i'm one of the ONLY FIVE taking advance found exam this year. THANK GOOODNESS whether i pass or fail i'd be going for the next grade. why waste one year eh? of course i have to aim for distinction no matter what, cause believe me the exam fee aint cheap.

at least i got a distinction for grade 6 =D but trust me major exams and grade exams are SERIOUSLY not the same.

anyways. selamat berpuasa to all my fellow Muslim friends. divya's in europe/us right now and i really have to resist the temptation to tell my friends in class what food i'm craving for. oh well. ONE MONTH.

i tell you, after my final year exam, it's two months of honeymooning till the next BIG year.

oh before i go, I CAN'T WAIT FOR CAMP ROCK. OWH THE JONAS BROTHERS. owh joe and nick. haha.

CAMP ROCK CAMP ROCK FOR THE WEEKEND!
chocaholic-me.